Sunday, March 27, 2011

i wish there was something i could quit

"when you run out of coffee, do you give it up and start drinking water instead? no, you go out and beg and cheat and move mountains to get more coffee. i can give up that girl as easy as i can give up coffee. some things just can't be replaced. of course, you drink some water while you wait, to keep from drying up. but it's not the same"

Friday, March 25, 2011

it's weird how i become haunted by some dreams i've had. i become completely wrapped up in being possessed by memories of my subconscious, materialized during sleepytime. hours later, days later, often even years later...i can recall the most vivid details-the most jarring feelings. winter makes it worse. by worse i guess i mean more prevalent. by worse i mean i can't get shit out of my head. by worse i mean i want to sleep until i'm dead and then sleep some more. real life often feels off-and for reasons i can't put my finger on. the air smells wrong. sunlight is hitting those bricks wrong. i'm worried the house i saw in my dream doesn't actually exist. i'm worried nothing will ever feel right.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011